" i want to be a mean ghost, the meanest ghost in the milky way . . . the meanest ghost on this side of the universe "

. . . Kali said, we have seen you, referring to a most fantastic picture of a goddess beheading greedy, evil and selfish men, standing on top of the abdomen of a male god who seemed utterly happy in this position, and followed by a huge crowd of women also beheading men . . . coincidentally the name of the goddess has at least the same phonetics of the person's name who made the comment . . . Kali . . . we have seen Kali at work . . . this mythological goddess fitted the mold, the image in my imagination.

i was asked how come i came with this plan, which young people thought was cool, an all good kind of plan.

the truth of the matter is that a plan of this nature is born out of despair and hope for a better world . . . every day i wish for a better world.

i was very young and i was aware of the terrible world i lived in . . . made terrible by men in power . . . i also learned to wonder . . . i still know the Earth is beautiful, animals are never ending sources of good lessons, there are plants for all purposes, to sleep, to wake up, to feel gloriously happy, to feel somber, to help you die without pain, to anesthetize your pray, to cure snake and spider bites, to deter evil spirits, to calm emotional pain, for sustenance.

the Earth is good, it is people who stuff up the natural cycles of nature, the natural course of the spirit . . . i was born in chile, and people say in chile everything happens with a 20% of exageration . . . i have lived the same thing 3 times ... in the '70s in chile, in the '80s in england and in the 90's in australia . . . rationalisation of the economy, modernisation of the economy, nice terminology for extreme neoliberal economic policies.

see, i have reasons to despair, a bad thing is bad, but a triple dose of the same bad bad bad thing is terribly hard . . . i have very humble sources of pleasure, and i like it like this . . . the really good things are free . . . the body is fully equiped for pleasure and love . . . my sons make me laugh and keep me sane by grounding me daily with their presence and needs.

i feel happy to hear when my youngest son said . . . " i want to be a General whose main aim is and would always be Peace . . . he called himself the General for Peace . . . if only this was possible . . . ABOdigital said he was going to be Pablo´s MESSENGER.

i have been reading about atomic bombs and weapons of mass destruction . . . it was early 1956 when the British and Australian Governments orchestrated Operation Buffalo, and decided to send observers to atomic weapon tests . . . New Zealand requested to send observers so that they could receive "firsthand information" of the atomic tests . . . five places were allocated for New Zealand.

On the 27th of September 1956, at 5 PM, the One Tree test started at Maralinga, this was the first test in the series . . . on top of a 30 metre tower a 15-kiloton atomic bomb was mounted.

the observers commented that "your skull seemed to light up ... the whole world was going up in a fireball . . . there was a moment of silence before an extraordinary shudder and a blast of hot air that knocked many off their feet. It made you feel like an ant under a boot."

a fireball 300 metres in semi-diameter commences to rise
the heat is intense
earth tremors
the fireball is still rising
radiating,
glowing nuclear blast,
water rises in a column
the mushroom seems to stem from a column of water
a dark ring on the surface
from the explosion is extending outwards in a wave.
the mushroom is now well defined in the sky
the blast sufficient to bent Coconut palms
intense but short live sound follows
negative surge followed by
positive surge for half an hour,
the ocean rose and fell up to 10 feet
there was heavy rain
the atomic cloud had a purplish hue
it finally drifted East

"NO radioactive dump in our ngura - in our country" say the Kupa Piti Kungka Tjuta, the Senior Aboriginal Women from Coober Pedy, South Australia

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